25 July 2014

maternity photos

my wonderful friend sam (samantha kelly photography) took a break from maternity leave for me & documented this pregnancy more beautifully than i ever could have imagined. like making me get in a lake and float around haha! she's also done a few other things for us like our little family video and a couples photo shoot in downtown salt lake, and i couldn't imagine having anyone else capture such a special moment in our lives. 

(to see more photos from this shoot, head over to her site!) 

12 June 2014

happy birthday, nicholas!

happy, happy birthday to the love of my life!

thanks for being the greatest human i know. thanks for being my best friend, my adventure partner, and the one who keeps me sane. thanks for taking such great care of me during our marriage and especially during this pregnancy. i don't know what me or this baby would do without you! thank you for always supporting me and pushing me to reach my goals and dreams. thank you for giving me a life that i never imagined, but is better than i ever could have ever planned. you are the greatest and i just know this next year is going to be life-changing, and i'm lucky to have you by my side!

(we celebrated by having friends over, funfetti cupcakes & ice cream, eating bacon-wrapped hotdogs & all the fruit you could ask for. after all, the best way to a man's heart is through his stomach. ;)

04 June 2014

26.5 weeks (because every half counts!)

and then i remembered that i only have 1.5 more weeks in my second trimester and i'm all, whaaat?

so here's what's happening around this belly lately:

how far along are you? // 26.5 weeks exactly
due date // september 5th
total weight gain // 13 pounds
countdown // 93 days (ah!)
maternity clothes // i've been fortunate to only have to wear tshirts and dresses for maternity and pants are always so hot and itchy, that belly band is holding up for now. (literally!)
stretch marks? // nada. (knock on wood?)
sleep? // okay, crazy pregnancy dreams and insomnia. in these dreams sometimes i'm a mermaid that will drown if i go under the water, or i'll stab someone occasionally. i wake up feeling more tired than when i went to bed. so i just take lots of naps.
best moments // thinking about baby things as we walked around Babies R Us the other day & my mom getting baby their first outfit. little squishy baby!
movement // lots of kicking and rolling around and yes.
food cravings // so much sugar. i'm trying really hard to cut back. sometimes i only have 3 cookies for breakfast instead of 8. but sugar and snowcones and fresh fruit/drinks.
belly button in or out? // it's like the top is poking out and the bottom isn't going anywhere.
symptoms // itchy belly, running out of breath easily, pregnancy brain (all day e'ry day) and braxton hicks.
wedding ring on or off? // on with no trouble, but all my other rings don't fit anymore. is that weird?
happy or moody? // both. sometimes in the same sentence.
looking forward to... // shopping for baby things & nick's birthday (his last birthday with just the 2 of us. it's so crazy!)

oh i'm so excited. i feel 100% unprepared, but i'm excited.

01 June 2014

art city donuts

yesterday Art City Donuts just happened to be next to my parent's house, and I jumped on that like a frog on the asphalt in July. because i'm a big fan of donuts and this baby has a thing for consuming sugar.

and, confession, my Instagram "discover page" is 50% photos of donuts, so really.

anyway, A+ from me! we got the boston cream & blueberry crumble ones, and they were outstanding. a passing police officer even eyed them from afar, not a joke.

police man, baby, and me approved. (p.s. did anyone make it to the extra weekend of the dreamathon? i didn't realize they had it up this weekend too, and i completely missed it. AGAIN.)

22 May 2014

the quiet things that nobody sees

(photo from last year in Brooklyn. please take me back!)

what would you do if nobody was ever going to see it?

a little while ago i heard a profound statement that really stuck with me. it's the idea that people only do things if it adds to their story. for example, if someone saw a man in a wheelchair trying to get through a door, the thought that goes through their mind is "am i the kind of person who helps this kind of man in this way?" and if they are, they do it. this in turn leads to adding to and creating their being, or their "story." 

basically, people make decisions based on stories/analogies they create based on experience, what they've seen and what they've done. does that make sense? i'm bad at explaining my thought processes. (the whole idea is from the book "Sources of Power: How People Make Decisions" by Gary Klein, if you're interested) 

so this isn't news. you make emotional decisions every day based on the person you are/want to be/are trying to become, which is awesome because we have unlimited opportunities to be whoever we want to be. 

but i think that social media plays a big part in that as well, blogging included. i feel like i'm constantly seeking out/reading stories that i enjoy but aren't my own. and subconsciously, when i do something, i first think, "is this adding to my story the way i want to create it?" ... or, "is this something so-and-so would do?" and my actions and behaviors reflect my thoughts.

i guess sometimes i have to sit back and think, "if no one would ever see this, would i still post it/do it/dress like this/do my hair this way/decorate my house like this/paint my toes like that?" and i hope that whatever i would do is exactly what i'm doing. so i have two choices: either i accept my life the way it is, moody-sweats-&-4-bowls-of-lucky-charms-mornings and all, and not be embarrassed to share my story, OR i take a hold of my life and make it the way i want it, so if someone were to see a portion of it, it's portraying my story exactly as i hope it would. 

to start, here's a secret: i love to be girly. i love polka dots and stripes, i love the color pink, gold, glitter, diamonds, New York City, brightly colored tights, high heels, doing my hair, bangs, my glasses, photography, all kinds of lipstick and nail polish, fresh flowers, Zooey Deschanel, calligraphy, the color white, thrift shopping, wearing skirts and dresses, washi tape, makeup, cupcakes, hamburgers, traveling, big cities, and graphic design. my dream is to throw a really awesome party that is so creative that pinterest explodes. so i guess you could say i'm a typical blogger. but i'll be the first to admit that i try not to show my interests because i want to stand out and not be a stereotype. "if all the bloggers are into saltwater sandals this summer, i'm totally not buying any because i don't want to be another one of those people."  i want to be "cool and hip" in an original sort of way. but to be for reals, i looooooove all that stuff and it makes me really happy. and i wish i owned a pair of saltwaters. so, really, who cares what other people think? bring on all the cute things! (at least that's the goal here) 

so.. what do you think? do you ever catch yourself acting/thinking like this? what do you do to get out of the habit and love yourself the way you are? 

i'm really very curious :)

08 May 2014

do i even have a title?

+ this week is weird.

+ the tiki shack opened, and i just want to go and get a horchata snow cone every single day.

+ we're moving. it's to a quaint house with a big backyard. i'm completely overwhelmed with everything that has to do with moving, and it doesn't help that i can't lift heavy boxes. but, hey, at least we have a washer and dryer in the house again.

+ hormones are all over the place. i'm excited, then i'm freaking out, then i'm crying, then i just want a hamburger and to be cuddled.


29 April 2014


this morning i took nick to work and proceeded to eat breakfast by myself. i got a bowl of cereal and 2 slices of toast with jam. and then i sat at the kitchen table and cracked open a book on Jean-Francois Millet. for research. a pretty average day, you know?

but for some reason the sun was shining a bit brighter, the flowers smelled just a bit sweeter, and i felt overwhelmed with how beautiful my life is. i could see the car outside the window and thought how grateful i am that we even have a car. even the plants i thought i killed came back to life (because i remembered to water them.) this sweet baby gave me a nudge and i thought, "i can't believe that in a few short months i'll be sharing breakfast time with my tiny one." and then koda whined a lot and i spilled jam on my pants and i had places to go, so my day went on.

the world is full of wonderful things.

26 April 2014

around the house

it's finals week around these parts, and things are starting to get real!

i hit the 20 week halfway mark last week, and i can't even believe it. there are still people who are like, "wait, you're half way? you don't even look pregnant at all!" thanks. 

i was going to have nick take some pictures of me today to show off the bump that is really there, buuuuuut this weather decided to strike me down with a migraine. (does anyone else have gloomy weather as a migraine trigger?) and my hair wasn't going to have any of that.

i feel like i have to clean, organize, and decorate the entire house. luckily nick likes plants, so i was allowed to add lots of green to our decor over Easter weekend. now that my workload isn't giganto, i'm filling my time with other things like spending money and making nick move big things around for me. we also got such an amazing deal on a practically new front loading washer/dryer set. i could cry! we haven't had our own washer/dryer for years and it's exactly what we need with a little one coming. someone up there is looking out for us, that's for sure. from the same people, we also got a baby food processor, humidifier, and some other baby things. baby things. we're buying baby things. 

speaking of the littlest nugget, despite the return of morning sickness (boo!) the biggest thing with baby recently is feeling little kicks & wiggles! it's for reals now. no mistaking it for gas bubbles anymore. they're especially active while i'm sleeping/laying down or after i eat chocolate. if i'm laying flat on my back, i can see my belly move. nick can even feel it. it's so so magical!

to kick off the summer.. i'll probably buy myself some maternity pants. i've held off for this long, but after wearing only skirts and leggings for the past few weeks i feel it's finally time.